I suck at life *big smile*

Yeah yeah yeah I know, its been a while but I actually have a life now *sarcastic smile* But I miss all of you so fucking talk to me! Jesus alot has gone on but shit happens. So I'll be on alot more now. Have fun and I love you all <3

Shauna.

Whispers In The Dark - Skillet



Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is
Just waiting
To turn your tears to roses

I will be the one that's gonna hold you
I will be the one that you run to
My love is
A burning, consuming fire

[Chorus:]
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear my whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear my whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark

You feel so lonely and ragged
You lay here broken and naked
My love is
Just waiting
To clothe you in crimson roses

I will be the one that's gonna find you
I will be the one that's gonna guide you
My love is
A burning, consuming fire

[Chorus x 2]

Whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark

My favorite song in the whole world....

Okay-

So I'm finally fucking the happiest I have EVER been.

Why does someone always have to break balls?

I love Dylan Justice Kidd with all my life, soul, and heart.

NO ONE

I repeat,

NO ONE

Is going to tear us apart.

Just the way he says I love you...

I know he means it.

The way he holds me...

And even kisses me...

Dylan means it.

I know he wants this just as bad as I do.

I trust him whole heartedly.

I mean...

I know its sooo cliche to be worrying about my boyfriend and blah blah blah...

But hes the one person I trust.

That makes me happy.

That knows how to cheer me up and make me laugh when I need it.

He is "My knight is black armor who rode up on a black horse and stole my soul."

It is forever his.

♥

*sighs* I don't know...

This world couldn't get anymore fucked up.

Losing two close friends to murder and suicide...

?

Whats this world coming to?

Can anyone answer that?

NO

I just know that the people/person who makes me happy the most are in my life...

And I would never

EVER

Have it any other way.

At all.

Its all I ever wanted...

To be happy.

And I am.

He is too.

So I guess this venting thing does help...

And if you've read all this........

------------------------------------------------


I thank you so much for giving shit and listening to me.

I'm really happy right now...

For once...

And I have a feeling it won't end here...

I have so many great people in my life and by my side...

To help me through all of this and keep me going.

I love them ♥

They are my life

Dylan♥

Jo

Izzy

Tyler M.

Joycee (you rock!)

Kodi

Alyssa

You know who you are...

Even if you never read this...

Thanks.

You're the reason I'm still going.

But *sighs* I'll cut myself off now.

*laughs*




-Shauna

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!


Yeah I won't be home on your birthday so heres an early birthday wish ;]

Much ♥
Shauna

Am I what you want?

Or is it her?

I try so hard but I can't be perfect.

My heart torn from my chest.

Bleeding can't be stopped.

I'm not like her.

I can't be her.

I can't be like her.

I'm sorry I can't make you happy.

I'm sorry its her you want.

I'm sorry its her you miss.

I'm just in the way of the perfect life you miss.

Its not fair to lead me on like this.

Just let me down and let me go.

Before I get too far into this abyss.

Push me down and walk away.

I know you think about it each and everyday.

I gave you my heart.

I gave you my soul.

You just happen to be the one whos in control.

I can't be her.

I can only be me.

So open your eyes to only see,

That its me here in front of you.

This is where I stand.

I can let go.

Or stand here to hold your hand.

To guide you through the dark.

The path that leads us along.

The light in my heart.

My very favorite song.

That is you.

This is how I feel.

My feelings are so strong.

I wonder if they're even real.

You're my baby.

The one who keeps me alive.

The one who makes me smile.

And even makes me cry.

Tears of joy.

Or tears of pain.

Just fuck it cause its all the same.

I can't live without you.

You're my breath.

The blood flowing through my body.

I'm not ready to take my last breath.

I can make you happy.

I can be there.

I'm just not perfect like (no names)

Was she ever there?
Ever there to hold you when you were down.

Wiped away your tears when you frowned?

Gave you words of encouragement,

To help you when no one was around?

I just want you to open your eyes and see.

I want you to love ME.

I love you with all my heart.

I'll never leave you with a broken heart.

You said never break a promise,

And I promise you I won't.
I promise not to leave you.

I promise not to choke on these words that have plauged me for so long.

These thoughts of despair that have torn me to shreds.

Soon there won't be much left.

I hope you realize,

What this does to me.

It kills me.

And you're the only one who doesn't see.

So open your eyes,

This shouldn't come as a suprise.

I need you to love me or leave.

Cause i'm ready to cease.

 

 Not to a certain person *shrugs*...

http://www.myspace.com/xnofuckingwayx

I'm just here for your use, whenever you want something, I'm there to do it for you. I'm in the way and a waste of time. I have no purpose for being here on this planet. I walk alone, theres no one by my side. Theres no one there to hold my hand when I decide to cry. Pull the world over my eyes and make me feel secure. I tried, I tried my hardest over and over again only to become hurt once more. Turn your back like you always do and make me feel so insecure. This weight holding me down is afraid to let me up. Pulling me away from everything around me. I push you away only to save you. I never wanted you to get this close. It hurts more the longer it lasts. I'm just a shadow following you around, not even worth enough to speak up about. I'm only human, I have feelings too, if I'm so easy to forget about, lets see me forget about you.

Asking myself
Should I go,
or wait for you to?
My sanity is gone.
Thanks to you
I have no heart.
I gave it away.
Gave it to you.
This isn't fair.
How fucking could you?
You promised me and gave me your word.
I put on this fake smile,
just to make it work.
Cause without you,
I'd be no one.
I'd be as empty as your heart.
You...
The one I trusted.
The one I needed.
The one who turned me into
The cold hearted bitch I am.
So make your choice.
This isn't very fair.
Sitting here with this razor in my hand.
This is what you've done.
Only I can see.
Cause you'll never open yor eyes.
You're too blind to see.
Whats standing right in front of you.
You wouldn't know
If I cramed it down your throat.
Get out of my life,
or make your place.
Cause this is the last time you get away with it.
I won't play your games
Then have you expect me to stay.




I know...it makes no sense but it just came out so deal with it. Have a nice fucking day.

I just pierced my ears myself. Now I have two holes but god damn, that shit hurt. My right one is kinda swollen and stuff, hopefully it doesn't get infected....owch *touches ear* ow.

LETS ALL SUPPORT OUR BOYS IN THE RELEASE OF THE BLACK PARADE TOMORROW! DON'T FORGET TO WEAR ALL BLACK! SHOW THE BOYS SOME LOVE!

 

 

 

                                                           MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!

Stuck inside.

Burning up.

I guess we both did fuck up.

Never was right.

Never seemed fair.

You aways give me that same blank stare.

Can't turn back time.

Try running away.

Stoned is the easiest solution.

But never the best.

Only end up in this mess.

My feelings never change.

Never will.

Can't wait for the moment when time will stand still.

The moment I look into your eyes.

You know who you are.

You know what I mean.

I'm fucked up.

This I know.

But whos perfect these days?

Just know how I feel.

I need you here.

Please don't leave.

I love you more than you can see.....

Honey!.....I'm home! It's Nikki and Shauna dear, you are in for a nasty spankin'! lol You obviously didn't remember that I have your password too! Payback sucks don't it! I could get on here and fuck all your shit up, answer your messages, and say you're in love with &@#*%$, but I love you too much for my own good! It's ok though! I don't mind one bit!

AVENGED SEVENFOLD

"I Won't See You Tonight Part 2"

Come back to me, this is unconceivable
Breaking apart the ones you love
Hate runs deep for what you've done to us
Left alone through suicide...suicide

I just want to die, take away my life
lay by your side, please...

Come back to me, this is unconceivable
Breaking apart the ones you love
Hate runs deep for what you've done to us
Left alone through suicide

Look at my face you pierce with a blank stare
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend.
He's gone. Nothing will take back time.
I need him back, but nothing will take back time.

I can see just fine with you in my life,
there by my side as it starts to fade
I know this can't be right, stuck in a dream
a nightmare full of sorrow

Nightmare - full of pain [x2]

I look back and see the twisted road
Best friends and despair took its toll

Take away [x4]

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me, I cared for
and most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that way
please don't forget me
or cry while I'm away

Look at my face you pierce with a blank stare
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend.
He's gone. Nothing will take back time.
I need him back, but nothing will take back time.

I can see just fine with you in my life,
there by my side as it starts to fade
I know this can't be right, stuck in a dream
a nightmare full of sorrow

 

We'll all miss you Joe, we love you.

Hey everyone :) There are some people here on buzznet that you have got to add!!!!!!!!

suicidalemo

crazydanishemo

fuckmyface

xyaugerx

twinkie09

 

So pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaase add them! Thanks! =)

Funny One-Liners

100,000 sperm and you were the fastest?
42.7 percent of all statistics are made up on the spot.
99 percent of lawyers give the rest a bad name.
A bartender is just a pharmacist with a limited inventory.
A clean desk is a sign of a cluttered desk drawer.
A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory.
A closed mouth gathers no foot.
A conclusion is the place where you got tired of thinking.
A day without sunshine is like, night.
A diplomat is someone who can tell you to go to hell in such a way that you will look forward to the trip.
A flashlight is a case for holding dead batteries.
All generalizations are false, including this one.
All men are idiots, and I married their King.
Always remember you're unique, just like everyone else.
Always try to be modest and be proud of it!
Anything worth taking seriously is worth making fun of.
Artificial Intelligence usually beats real stupidity.
Assassins do it from behind.
Atheism is a non-prophet organization.
Auntie Em, Hate you, hate Kansas, taking the dog. Dorothy.
Be nice to your kids. They'll choose your nursing home.
Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder.
Beer: It's not just for breakfast anymore.
Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.
Better to understand a little than to misunderstand a lot.
Bills travel through the mail at twice the speed of checks
Borrow money from a pessimist, they don't expect it back.
Boycott shampoo! Demand the REAL poo!
C program run. C program crash. C programmer quit.
Change is inevitable, except from a vending machine.
Chocolate: the OTHER major food group.
Consciousness: That annoying time between naps.
Corduroy pillows: They're making headlines!
Could you drive any better if I shoved that cell phone up your ass?
Criminal Lawyer is a redundancy.
Daddy, why doesn't this magnet pick up this floppy disk?
Death is hereditary.
Despite the cost of living, have you noticed how popular it remains?
Did anyone see my lost carrier?
Diplomacy is the art of saying good doggie while looking for a bigger stick.
Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me, either. Just leave me alone.
Don't be irreplaceable; if you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.
Don't drink and drive. You might hit a bump and spill your drink.
Don't piss me off! I'm running out of places to hide the bodies.
Don't take life too seriously, you won't get out alive.
Double your drive space. Delete Windows!
Duct tape is like the force, it has a light side and a dark side and it holds the universe together.
Eagles may soar, but weasels don't get sucked into jet engines.
Energizer Bunny arrested and charged with battery.
Error, no keyboard. Press F1 to continue.
Ever notice how fast Windows runs? Neither did I.
Ever stop to think, and forget to start again?
Everyone has a photographic memory. Some don't have film.
Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.
Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted.
Few women admit their age. Few men act theirs.
For every action there is an equal and opposite criticism.
For Sale: Parachute. Only used once, never opened, small stain.
Forget world peace. Visualize using your turn signal.
Friends help you move. Real friends help you move bodies.
Friends may come and go, but enemies tend to accumulate.
Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your mouth is moving.
Genius does what it must, talent does what it can, and you had best do what you're told.
Get a new car for your spouse; it'll be a great trade!
Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.
Give me ambiguity or give me something else.
Good judgment comes from bad experience and a lot of that comes from bad judgment.
Hard work has a future payoff. Laziness pays off now.
He who laughs last thinks slowest.
Honk if you love peace and quiet.
Honk if you want to see my finger.
How do you tell when you run out of invisible ink?
How does Teflon stick to the pan?
How many of you believe in telekinesis? Raise my hand.
I am not a vegetarian because I love animals. I am a vegetarian because I hate plants.
I couldn't repair your brakes, so I made your horn louder.
I didn't say it was your fault. I said I was going to blame you.
I don't suffer from insanity. I enjoy every minute of it.
I feel like I'm diagonally parked in a parallel universe.
I get enough exercise just pushing my luck.
I just got lost in thought. It was unfamiliar territory.
I need someone really bad. Are you really bad?
I poured Spot remover on my dog. Now he's gone.
I took an IQ test and the results were negative.
I tried sniffing Coke once, but the ice cubes got stuck in my nose.
I used to be indecisive. Now I'm not sure.
I used to have a handle on life, and then it broke.
I used to have an open mind but my brains kept falling out.
I won't rise to the occasion, but I'll slide over to it.
I wouldn't be caught dead with a necrophiliac.
I'm as confused as a baby in a topless bar.
I'm not a complete idiot, some parts are missing!
I'm writing a book. I've got the page numbers done.
If at first you don't succeed, destroy all evidence that you tried.
If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.
If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?
If ignorance is bliss, you must be orgasmic.
If you can read this, I can slam on my brakes and sue you!
If you can't convince them, confuse them.
If you choke a smurf, what color does it turn?
If you get to it and you can't do it, well there you jolly well are, aren't you.
If you haven't much education you must use your brain.
If you lend someone $20, and never see that person again; it was probably worth it.
If you tell the truth you don't have to remember anything.
If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments.
IRS: We've got what it takes to take what you've got.
It IS as bad as you think, and they ARE out to get you.
It is far more impressive when others discover your good qualities without your help.
It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.
It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal the neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.
It's lonely at the top, but you eat better.
Jack Kevorkian for White House Physician.
Jesus loves you, but everyone else thinks you're an asshole.
Join the Army, meet interesting people, and kill them.
Keep honking. I'm reloading.
Laughing stock: cattle with a sense of humor.
Learn from your parents' mistakes: use birth control.
Lottery: A tax on people who are bad at math.
Love may be blind but marriage is a real eye-opener.
Make it idiot proof and someone will make a better idiot.
Monday is an awful way to spend 1/7th of your life.
Montana: At least our cows are sane!
More hay, Trigger? No thanks, Roy, I'm stuffed!
Multitasking means screwing up several things at once.
My hockey mom can beat up your soccer mom.
My mind is like a steel trap, rusty and illegal in 37 states.
Never ask a barber if he thinks you need a haircut.
Never do card tricks for the group you play poker with.
Never mess up an apology with an excuse.
Never miss a good chance to shut up.
Never test the depth of the water with both feet.
Never underestimate the power of stupid people in large groups.
No one is listening until you make a mistake.
Oh Lord, give me patience, and GIVE IT TO ME NOW!
Okay, who put a stop payment on my reality check?
On the other hand, you have different fingers.
Oops. My brain just hit a bad sector.
Out of my mind. Back in five minutes.
Pentiums melt in your PC, not in your hand.
Plan to be spontaneous, tomorrow.
Pride is what we have. Vanity is what others have.
Puritanism: The haunting fear that someone, somewhere may be happy.
Quantum mechanics: The dreams stuff is made of.
Quickly, I must hurry, for there go my people and I am their leader.
Reality is a crutch for people who can't handle drugs.
Remember half the people you know are below average.
Save the whales. Collect the whole set
Save your breath. You'll need it to blow up your date!
Sex is like air; it's not important unless you aren't getting any.
Shin: a device for finding furniture in the dark.
Smile, it's the second best thing you can do with your lips.
Smith & Wesson: The original point and click interface.
Some days you are the bug, some days you are the windshield.
Some drink at the fountain of knowledge. Others just gargle.
Some people are only alive because it is illegal to shoot them.
Success always occurs in private and failure in full view.
Suicidal twin kills sister by mistake!
Support bacteria, they're the only culture some people have.
The Bermuda Triangle got tired of warm weather. It moved to Finland. Now Santa Claus is missing.
The colder the x-ray table, the more of your body is required on it.
The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.
The hardness of butter is directly proportional to the softness of the bread.
The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and a flat tire.
The more you complain, the longer God makes you live.
The only substitute for good manners is fast reflexes.
The problem with the gene pool is that there is no lifeguard.
The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket.
The secret of the universe is @*&^^^ NO CARRIER
The severity of the itch is inversely proportional to the ability to reach it.
The sex was so good that even the neighbors had a cigarette.
The shortest distance between two points is under construction.
The sooner you fall behind the more time you'll have to catch up.
The universe is a figment of its own imagination. There's no future in time travel.
There are 3 kinds of people: those who can count & those who can't.
There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.
There's too much blood in my caffeine system.
Things are more like they are now than they ever were before.
Time is the best teacher; unfortunately it kills all of its students.
Time is what keeps everything from happening at once.
Timing has an awful lot to do with the outcome of a rain dance.
To steal ideas from one person is plagiarism; to steal from many is research.
To succeed in politics, it is often necessary to rise above your principles.
Very funny Scotty, now beam down my clothes.
Wanted: Meaningful overnight relationship.
Warning: Dates in calendar are closer than they appear.
We have enough youth, how about a fountain of smart?
We were born naked, wet and hungry. Then things got worse.
Wear short sleeves! Support your right to bare arms!
What happens if you get scared half to death twice?
What is a free gift? Aren't all gifts free?
What's the speed of dark?
When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane and going the wrong way.
When there's a will, I want to be in it.
When you don't know what you are doing, do it neatly.
Who is General Failure and why is he reading my hard disk?
Who stopped payment on my reality check?
Why do psychics have to ask you for your name?
Why is abbreviation such a long word?
Why isn't phonetic spelled the way it sounds?
Women who seek to be equal to men lack ambition.
You are depriving some poor village of its idiot.
You can do more with a kind word and a gun than with just a kind word.
You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say will be misquoted then used against you.
You're just jealous because the voices are talking to me and not you!
Your gene pool could use a little chlorine.
Your kid may be an honors student, but you're still an idiot.

You can turn my worst day into my best
You're really unlike the rest
My light through the dark
The hand that guides
I could never live the rest of my life
without you by my side
My world stops spinning at the sound of your name
You're only thing that keeps me sane
I can't stop thinking about you
you occupy my thoughts
I will never stop loving you
even after my heart has stopped
My only reason to live
My only reason to try
You're my best supporter
and you understand why
Aiden you're my life
I'd stop breathing if it weren't for you
I love you so much
I promise I'll never leave you.

"I'll try" she said as she walked away.
"Try not to lose you,"
Two vibrant hearts could change.
Nothing tears the being more than deception,
unmasked fear.
"I'll be here waiting" tested and secure.

Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.

"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me,
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know its hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart
I know its hurting you, but its killing me."

Nothing will last in this life,
our time is spent constructing,
now you're perfecting a world...meant to sin.
Con trict your hands around me,
squeeze till I cannot breathe,
this air tastes dead inside me,
contribute to our plague,
Break all your promises,
tear down this steadfast wall,
restraints are useless here,
tasting salvations near.

Fuck you Taylor.

Hi Shauna!!! Yep I'm on your site. Hi all of Shauna's friends! I'm Nikki! Shauna's gonna kill me when she sees this, but I don't care 'cause she can get over it! I could tell you guys some stories about her, and they're pretty funny but maybe you should ask her about them!!! XD

The time we/

T.P.ed her yard

Made a cheesecake in hallowen costumes

When she "saw a possum"  in the camper

When I found out she had a family of groundhogs but no gun

Took a trip to Kenyon

I hope you guys have as much fun as I am right now!!! lol !   bye Shauna-na-na!

 

Okay, I just wanna mention some of my friends on here and everything....


Adam- You're like my brother. I love you so much!!!! (bloodypads)

Karen- You know ALL of my secrets LOL Love ya Gir whore :) (iheartpatstump)

Evan- You're so sweet! Love ya my sexy loser. (cyanide19)

Gotty- You are like my best friend and you always will be. (misundrstd)

Sierra- My sex buddy, thanks for always talking to me. (bulletsmylove)

Shonte- I love talking to you so much! (luvpetewentz)

Davey- You're so fucking awesome. I'm always here for you. (xsk8trx)

Britt- I missed you but your back now and I'm happy :) (chococat89)

Joezeffe and Jayden- Hottest twins ever. You guys kick ass.  (dirtyamateur)

Alyssa- You're never on but you still rock. (mcrluver09)

Matt- Always fun to talk to :) (alldreamsdie2)

Heather- My best friend! (patd12344)

Aiden V.- You mean alot to me. (biguy)

Mary- I love talking to you :) (punk123)

Lara- You're so cute and sweet! :) (xemoxbabyx)

Sien- You're soooo damn funny!! (weejackass)

Nikki- My best friend in the whole world!!!!!! You finally got a buzznet!!! Love you!! (twinkie09)

Jon- My bipolar buddy!! I love talking to you so much!!!!! You rock!! :) (jcmclinton)

Everyone else still kicks ass too by the way.

Okay, I have a real close friend here on buzznet and his name is Adam(bloodypads). Hes is a really great guy and a true friend. I can trust him with anything and I love him to no end. I know some of you may have a problem with Adam but you can just F*** OFF an leave him the hell alone. You guys are making a mistake by not being his friend. Theres no f***ing point in called him names and degrading him, maybe if you didn't do that he wouldn't have to be so mean sometimes. We all say things we regret and I'm sure hes sorry for the things hes said. Whether you know it or not, it hurts him really bad when you degrade him and shit. He does have feelings too. So why don't you add him (if you haven't already) and make a fucking awesome friend? =/


Love ya Adam :)